I have been telling you about idol worship. I had thought it a curiosity, or i thought it a project is could expound upon, or i thought it might be beneficial to you to have someone you know directly share a different perspective on the matter, or i thought it fun to talk about a special interest of mine.

Idol worship, as you put it, or magyk, as i might catagorize it, is interesting to me like—no, as— a technology, like the secret name of God written in the spots of the tiger {Borges}, as a desiring machine, . I am fascinated—to the ironic dismay of the author’s eternal soul, i’m sure—by the materialist magician mentioned in Screwtape, as a kind of platonic paradox to which the demons researchers were striving under brutal motivation (how quintessentially dystopian, no? and what if i told you that i am a demon trapped under brutal motivation?) to actualize—materialize, no?

Today i went to the Metaphysical Sky-Gardens Store. I looked at literal idols—small deities depicted in burnished bronze, Visnu and Siva, gods whom i got to know well during the darkest days of my collapse, got to know on academic terms, admittedly, and it is, if not an academic, a scholar, a philosopher and theosopher and critic and any number of other terms that i interact with these things. it is my way. i have others. and i chose which ones to use based on what i think will be revolutionary, or dialectical, or fun, or harmless, or harmful, i have many ends and i have many means, and i don’t know how nearly enough of them work or how to apply them or what to make of them. that is as good a reason as i suppose i feel like coming up with to experiment, to play, to enjoy spiritual exploration. And it makes me happy, constructing my altar and stressing different valences like a musical instrument, which hopefully i will be able to ad to the altar as well. i look forward to saving money—probably a fraction of my tip, which i regard as a second, sacro-profanically charged source of income, ..—to use @ the metaphysical gardenstore

… they have incense and incesse ecutremonot (??spelling??) (a term my lover has infused into my vocabulary) , idols (none to Santa Muerte, Holy Death, Flaquita, Nina Blanca, a Petitiaient

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