dreams Friday morning were long and involved and i betrayed someone profoundly, and then woke without any mechanism for confession or atonement. i think that was in the afternoon. but at 8am i woke to a of bad thirst, ran to the bathroom, and vomited. i was sick yesterday too, i attribute it to the antibiotics I'm taking for my infected toe. fear.

i went back to bed and slept hard. woke, Michael and i decided to postpone bank trip, try again tomorrow

went to get coffee, got a book by Benjamin in the mail, excited, already almost finished surrealist essay.

wanted to write all day and couldn't. but i did have an extra long together hour with Dimitri and good cuddles with the kittens, play with Princess Buttercup,

i must add Fox as an author for that dispatch he helped with

getting close to done with The Long Way to a Small Angry Planet. i just don't care for Ashby at all, idk what maybe cause he's a capitalist or is just too blame but I'm quietly rooting for his death

walking up from nightmares as a kind of dress. that was a NHFP motif in my dreams

1. dying and resurrecting across time, worlds, planes of being

2. surealism spiritualism Unconscious Messiah magnetism hypnotism

3. impossible realism, the impossible and other concepts real existing inside or outside of things,

4. magick, technology, all of their science…

5. the consuls

6. Olympic surrealist games invented each cycle, scoring and interpretation a projection of the id

12:11

sleepy. weird dreams vr, death was commonplace and tragic and undoabke, tried to take off the machine fumbling in the dark, dreams and their costs

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1. ransom theory of atonement

2. self harming god

3. contradictory interests

4. lent

5. pre individual

6. dreaming awake

7. …