i had a really hard shift today at work. I've been writing on my blog really consistently lately. i wasn't considerate of my boyfriend's time yesterevening. today is "my Thursday"; after tomorrow I'll have 3 days off during which I'll have surgery. I'm scared. i love our cats, I'm worried about money, i had a big ptsd episode recently, I'm anxious about a lot of things, i wish i were a better person.

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get a sandwich and chips tomorrow