2 Vendémiaire CCXXXI
Still feeling kinda sick today, got up late and that helped somewhat i think? I also called the vet today, now I am
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Monasteries for queer youth, queer ecclesiastical calendar—bisexuality visibility day, trans week, pride month, &cetera &cetera.
Also, Labor Temples, Theorist Theologians
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we have yet to assemble an (a)theology atheology aTheology, the theology of absence, apostisis? apophatic theology I suppose comes close. been reading Lent and Apost(le)ate. meta… metacatemsis? life over life?
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earlier today I read (Borges’) Writing of the God, Ragnorök
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and parts of Tlön, Uqbar, Orbis Tertius
I still feel sick. things seem to help for a bit, then they betray me.
i need to find tutoring work
called the COWS, no dice.
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I can put an ad on craigslist.
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shit that costs money now? or maybe it did before
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ooh i like that
Fox is hunting a toy I’m holding by the handle with my knee, finally putting my restless leg syndrome to use as passive child care
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ok i should plan out my day. looking for work is important, yes, but its not like i have zero income. some of this month i was working quite a lot already, though i think i already recieved (and burned through a portion of) that bout of higher income already, meaning that the next one will be lower cause i have been doing fewer hours and also been sick that last time following having to stay late unpaid …
tomorrow i have to take Dimitri to JFK with Oscaar, …come back and check on the kittens? yes, then drive back probably immediately to pick them up, do we have another carrier? that’s critical that i ask Angelico tomorrow
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very mönster
who mönsters out monsters
feel like i might throw up
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card tomorrow: 18. The Moon · Inverted
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something centered is always centered on a particular axis / dimension. such as · being vertically centered (though in actuality rather then ‘‘ ’’ …) just a little above the ground
…take allergy medication zach
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patron saint of cats ???
its st. gertrude
i would like to leaarn more about saint worship
catholicism has good world building, ill give them that, better then american protestantism anyway,
i really appreciate that about it.
i’ve been reading lent…hmm maybe i;ll play it out loud passively!
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reading goals
…rereading, re(reading) (re)reading rerereareareeraeaerearaeeearaerearerarre reading things over again
reading non/extra linearly not and more not and more not and more and other and difference and dialectics
reading cross textually
readinng out of order , ramping up into a text (see esp. infinite jest, Spectres of Marx, ………
reading selectively but not necessarily by a schedule, reading impulsively
impulse buying books for me is closely connected to my reading health
reading health! that’s a coll concept , good essay idea
reading passively, rereading
salvarono salvaraon salvaronoa salvarona … … … … .. .. … …
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Dominico is so cute
listening to Lent on background
its nice
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him and his concisciouness conciouss consciousness conscience .. … . . . . .. . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . . god, concscicen concious consciiousness
i’ve never been able to spell those two easily
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queerness, autism, monastic life, counter lifestyles, contralife, … … … … … … see anathem stevenson stevenson? stephenson ? Stepvhcnessdndn
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Geronomo is indeed very prddod, though its not altogether clear that he is able to identify whenn hes being prideful or not? ? ? ? ? ? ?
jude might also be a dominican demon
how many times has jude been found out? how does he get out of situations? write thatt history . writ thate
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angels, gods. see ragnor·k, … … … … … … T·lon uqbar, … … … … . .. … .. .. . . . . . . . . . .
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geralimo and the count, according to two partially contradictory hierarchies, patron-client and god,
count comes to command would be better cause he could refuse. if he asks humbly he can’t call upon hi church imunity , he is instead called upon as a priest to attend to a dying man.
demons in heaven probably obseerve complex hierarchies in heaven, generating heat…
demons are interesting. i love the religion for breakfast video(s_) on them…
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patrons displaying piety by giving money in exchange for resources, and jeranimo wants to assert democratic and monastitic rights and independence
cosmo(s?) and lorenzo and pierro
fascinating networks of pattronage and kn o wledge and debt , face? shame? simoney, simonney simoney simoney simoney simoney simoney simoney simoney?
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patron lord-saint, saints among the rich, that’s interesting jo. why did you choose to make both of the confirmed saints rich men? rulership and magnetic megnessisu msgngnes sns dnds ns snsnsns nsnsn magnificint lorezo lorenzo… … …. … … .. magician merchant lord, … … … …. reflecting … reflecting… reflecting.
Is lorenzo the God? God of florence?? everthing reflectss his glorry, and glorry is reflected to the church and to god and to gods gods gods all the way up…
all the way deep
emergent godness.
you don’t know what you dont know you know you don’t know you know
what is is not, both neither
what you know you know what you know you dont what you don’t know you don’t know nad what you dont you do, aboth both a and b byyaa cs …ca .ccccccc
if i write messy i write messy
tautologies are never merely tautological
there’s a context a niche a language breathing through it
is it allegory?
i keep wantint g to read it as allegory
sometimes allegories are alegories. is geranimo satin saten satan setan Satan yeah thats the spelling Satan Karen Accuser Karen Satan Acusse Jacuse J’Accusse, the reformer, the demons are not shut out but in fact a vital element of the ecosystem
!read murray bookchin…
yeah yeah i know
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i still feel ssick
i would like a st. gerome and a Bast icons for my altar, and also i think siva, thoth, Jesus for sure, Hermes-Diyonisus-Appollo? ZEUS_POSIEDON.Hades
artimis athena appollo ? Hestia, Hekate, Circe, … … … … …. … … … … … … … … … … … …. … … … … …. … … … … … … … … …. …. …. …. … …. … …. …………… maybe Ganesh as well? i kinda vibe with Hanuman but i’m not sure
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inverted moon is right for sure.. but i think i will stand them on right side up as i put them away. i would like cards whcih can be read both ways, like playing cards, not necessarily symetrical but abstract enogh maybe and with the writing on both ends for sure, if writing at all. the number would be sufficient anyway…i can tell that tarot is something i could potentially (sink.waste.invest.pour..loose.waste. :( … ) a lot of money in.
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itss ok. deep breaths. quantitatively, you’ve actually been moving through quite a few goalss this month, and as it happens u are dealing with the fallout of one of them,maybe. anyway, rest and reflection ar e not always sins. in and of themselves? well, what does that mean anyway.
marx discusses the transubstantiation of money to kapital, i wonder what kind of book he would have written had he grown up in mideval india, or high imperial period of the aztec tripple alliance … …. … … … … … ….
we have lived many lives, and variations on many lives, and these lives are not merely nor exclusively repetitions buut ellab·rations of rations of souls rations of souls demons in c. s. lewis don’t really make sense, but i do like the worldbuilding as like an exercise in dystopia, a self help book from a dystopia i suppose, how to win souls and influence demons … … … … … … …. …
hey its ok just cause you are not writing something in its entierty in a single fell swoop the moment you have an idea doesn’t mean you aren’t working on it or working towards it, this is actually a great resource of ideas you’re building passively and actively in a format that works, thats not hing to nothing to nothing to shake a stick at, presumably a wand or otheer instrument or object which might impart some negative vallence? idk idk idkdkdikdiddkdkdidk
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yeah it makes sense that that s is a thats is thatsi thatis thatis atlthathis talth thalththsisi thsihs that is a recurring thguoht tht thatoughthouth that thtath thoguht thath thath thta that that thought is a recurring thought is a thought is a ththoght thoght you keeep coming keep coming back to.
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shit ok i did aa sitewide adjustment that kinda workd kinda not
buttercup is so interested in fox
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eh its fine, ill fix it later
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how to type a check mark🗸
Dispatches
ok how should we migrate them, all republican calendar? no lets do all dates.
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https://youtu.be/MPnWbj70TTY?t=400
Dr. K the conservative? i don’t assume that a class of people have a class of issues.
granted, 1. he isn’t using precisely marxist language so its a side by side, and 2. thats fair, especially in terms f of of what he’s working on
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i feel sick still :(
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theorists and theologians, saints and martyers/ activists? leaders? not necessarily not statescraft, but not career politicians usuallY/? no politics and politician is
we must all become politicians. we must all study the arts of politics, war, alliance, critique, … … art… …arts arts arts art is done, art is a practice, is science a practice? my anti science attitutdues want to say no so I should probably give it a good chance to argue that yes
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!need to brush my teeth. maybe that will help me feel better too…
going to bop around for a bit. check in here for link on your phone zach:
https://youtu.be/MPnWbj70TTY?t=400