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feel somewhat better today, i slept from ~11:50 to ~18:00 after getting back from the vet. i still have a lot to do, some of which will inevitably have to get pushed forward. still, i want to make sure I’m set up well for the next few days of shiftwork, and I really must message my thesis adviser and try to find a second reader.
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card today: Six of pentacles △
“Giving, charity, generosity, abundance.” makes me think about the patron-client economy of 15th century Florence, the setting of … Lent, Walton. Debt, face, prestige, exaltation, God as the top of a pyramid of investment and obligation and prestige, knowledge-aesthetics? and of course the contrast to princely states, where the powers of the upper class are more concentrated. ☍☍☍
I want to explore something similar with communist politics. I know that in France the communist party functioned for a time as a shadow welfare-state of sorts, which is interesting because you can have a network of support and glorification but instead of between two classes, its an intraclass relationship between individuals and collectives, et cetera et cetera. something similar could maybe be accomplished with guilds, or soviets, …
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i want to learn more about the historic origins of the biblical angels, in particular the theory that they originate partially as the panizens of the theologi of contemporary tribes…. … … … … … … … .. .. .. . . … … … … .. . . . . . .. … … …
fell down a wikipedia rabbit hole
Ouriel, El is my flame, archangel of fire, control over demons who helped the demiurge create Adam, …….science, poetry, confirmation, arts, judgement
Zadkiel, El is my righteousness (also kindness, Hasdiel); freedom, mercy, benevolence, forgiveness
Ophites, Sethians, Valentinians, Yazidis…
angels, watchers, messangers, demons, daimons, … … … .. …
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happy New Moon!
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New Moon Spread: 5 cards, left to right
▽ The World; ▽ Judgement; ▽ Princess of Cups; △ Fur of Cups, ▽ The Devil
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▽ The World
“Final Stretch,Impediment, Hinderance”
thoughts on the world card: Totality, context, becoming, connection, definition, logic, whole.
finishing up, tying loose ends, lack of closure (addressal of). third read.
▽ Judgement
“Doubts, Self Judgement, Overcritical”
Interesting, I had always conflated this one with Justice. Seems to be a call to meditate and be less self-critical. i am reading this out of order (Devil first, this one second) but I’m getting Thesis vibes
▽ Princess of Cups
“Low tides, immaturity, Emotional Instability”
running away, overly demanding, inner child, opening blockages re creativity, relationships, emotional istability and temper tantrums, triggers. another call for reflection, meditation, self check-ins. fourth.
△ Four of Cups
“Distracted, Withdrawal, Rumination”
only obverse card in the spread and its kinda negative vibes…well not necessarily i guess.
stagnation, boredom, contentment, fear. time to contemplate, meditate, and reflect on desire.
opportunities, possibilities, shift in perspective. see Judgement.
▽ The Devil
“Awareness, Breaking Free, Empowerment”
Particularly vis-a-vis addictions, bondage.
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Potential Topics of Reading — Thesis, Meditation schedule?, Blog, Addiction, … Journaling, Renewing and Reflecting… … … …
Vibes — Really should reflect on meditation going forward… want to be more organized about stuff. some of my journaling has fallen off the wagon. … … … … … …
!get work schedule tomorrow
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